Purpose

Well here I sit with approx. a ton of homework and I just need to clear my head.

I think I may be being called to the mission field. It isn't a clear "Alecia this is God, go here and serve Me." but it is always this little thing in the back of my mind pushing me forward. I got to the point last week when I didn't care about my homework or school in general. Then this week rolls around and I have to take care of a lot of "hey your graduating soon" things, such as looking at grad schools, taking the major field test, applying for my major. It was in my major interview when Dr. Daugherty asked me what would my future look like...and out of no where I actually heard myself say that I wanted to be a counselor/missionary abroad and it was the first time I had vocalized that idea/concept. I mean I have talked about going back to visit NZ but for me to just say that I wanted to live abroad gave me a joy rush over me. Then I ran into Josh Bowlin at the Missions Fair thing in the Commons (yea it just happens to be missions week) and he talked to me about contacting people with global partners. I'm just scared out of my mind, I know if it is what He wants for me it will work out in His time but just going out of the country was such a push let alone moving abroad....

and that is what is on my mind...